Saturday, March 05, 2005 ;
3/05/2005 12:15:00 PM
Guess people are just plain silly when they tend to procrastinate and try to feel sorry for themselves. I'm one of them. The only difference is that I'm far worse. It seems to me when I am down, the whole world just sucks and being "in my own world", my problems seems to be the biggest and suckiest thing that would have happened. WEll, what 's more amazing than this, is that i never really realised this until I consolidate what has happened to my friends for the past months...things just sort of hit me....
What the heck I am doing!! I mean there are my friends or aquaintances who I guess are facing more shit than I will face in a year and here I am always worrying about my work, studies, finance and love life which everybody faces everyday...
Examples of shit,
1) Being screwed up and brought on a emotional roller coaster ride by a bitch, who's by many people's standard ain't pretty, acts cute and worst of all, have such a rotten character. I mean my impression of most girls are that they live by the rule of romance and intimacy and 'I love you's are meant when they are serious about the r/s. Well, for this slut mentioned above, she just thrives upon getting this chance of enjoying private intimacy and cheating guys. I mean if you are intending to be frivolous about it, just be straightforward and truthful, I'm quite sure any guy would not mind and not to say the least the other 5 guys you took for a ride.
2) Things like being pregnant before even getting married (some of you out there might think it is just a small thing) but shit happens, and the kid comes out to the real world pre mature... what will you do? life's harsh at times.... (p/s: Dun give up ya... Be Strong.. things will turn out alright.)
and many more.....
On a contradictory point of view, I mean these things to some are just minute stuff as they might even have problems living a normal life or have to work their ass off to make ends meet. Well kudos to them for being able to make a fruitful or meaningful life if they are able to stand up and face reality.
However, in my case, lacking this kind of determination and optimism, I allowed myself to sink. In comparison, my problems are a 1 to 2 on the richter scale, whereas their problems are at least a5 to start with...
But thanks to them.. I have managed to take my first step and step out. There is no point being pitful of yourself and should always look on the bright side and move on. Life doesn't stop there unless you want it to which would be terribly strong.
WEll, be strong and move on. Things are full of ups and downs. If you are down, you just have to stay positive because it will definitely go up.
J'amore mon cherie
