Sunday, October 21, 2007 ;
10/21/2007 11:59:00 PM
Sigh.. I've just attended 2 funerals of friends' parents 2 days in a role.. within a month.. I have like 3 weddings coming along the way.. next week.. I have to celebrate my mum's birthday.. early this week I've just celebrated my dad's birthday... I think I just used up my savings for the next 2 months for all these events... Die liao.. how to save money like that...
Anyway, i think I've written a wrong statement for dazhi's mum.. think his dad misinterpreted my meaning.. What I meant was that she is remembered in my mind when we played mahjong thus she was a mahjong khaki.. sigh.. always kenna chide by his dad... sianz...
But never mind.. most important is what I meant lor...
More birthdays preparation to come...
J'amore mon cherie
Tuesday, October 16, 2007 ;
10/16/2007 08:57:00 AM
Sometimes you will suddenly realized that the one you have been going after is not the one you might want to spend your time with as you know that it will never work out... You let it slide.. but then how can this be done without the other letting go.
I'm sorry for misleading but then you are the misleaded leading on the misleader all this while..
You will never have the best of both world cuz your morals does not allow you to... and to do so, you might enjoy it but in the long run, all you will feel is guilt as you will be letting both person down. Just forget and move on. Enjoy the bliss that you have... or actually the false picture that you have painted for yourself... cuz you have miss it, your chance for something different..
Anyway, somehow I just know it will not last.. we are too different, we are too late.. It was never meant to be. I guess I have begun to let go and hope you will slowly understand that to. Understand that it is just a fling and maybe for me, my feeble attempt to know what I've missed out... I dunno.. it is just crude of me..
I trying to learn all over again now.. hope you do to...
J'amore mon cherie
